Get comfortable with being uncomfortable….

Today I was a nervous wreck, I woke up shaking with nerves. Yesterday I had another anxiety attack out of the blue I went dizzy and felt like I was going to fall over. I’m trying not to let it but it sends me into a downward spiral.

But I came to the conclusion the only way out of this is through it and I have to experience the discomfort. The anxiety is going to be there anyway so I have to get on with my life with it.

So I set myself the goal to start working out again and I think that’s why I woke up feeling nervous. For someone who used to work out everyday to being scared to almost move was quite a turnaround. But I figured if I’m going to feel sick and dizzy and like I’m going to fall over I might as well be proactive with it. If anything that made me more scared. I knew all the horrible sensations in my body were gonna come up, the tight chest, the blurred vision, the feeling I’m going to fall over, the tension in my neck and shoulders and behind the eyes.

The sensations didn’t disappoint they were all there. I wanted to stop, I wanted to cry, I wanted to curl up in a ball but then the instructor said something that helped me push on

“Get comfortable with being uncomfortable”

And that was all I needed to hear to keep pushing through. I still felt uneasy, I still felt like I could fall over any second but I didn’t and I pushed through.

Only time will tell if this is the right way to go but there is only one way to find out and that is pushing through the discomfort, finding trust in my mind and body again to look after me like they always have.

Onwards and upwards